(the artiste formerly known as *45 Minutes To Forever*)

Monday, November 21, 2011

The First Day Of The Rest Of His Life

The tears came easy and fast as we stepped out of the door at home and I could barely see where I was going with them streaming down my face. I told him he was going to be okay and that Mamma was also hopefully going to be okay. I told him how this was going to be a great learning experience for him and us. I took Noah to his first settling in session at his nursery/crèche today. I knew it would be hard, but I wasn't prepared for the belly blow it turned out to be. 

I sat in the same room watching him play, and be a friendly, smiley, sociable person, and marvelled at how much of a personality he has begun to show. I watched in amazement how he functioned as a little person, independent of me, and it filled my heart with great pride and joy. 

His father and I have been his primary caregivers since he came into the world, and here we are now, ready (or wanting to be) to hand over his care for a large part of his waking hours to someone else. I feel a huge mixture of emotions - excitement, apprehension, wistfulness, guilt and happiness. It hurts more than I imagined it would. I know he'll thrive with all the stimulation, develop great relationships, and learn things we couldn't possibly teach him all by ourselves. I know we'll have good days and bad days, but I hope and pray that, overall, it will be a positive experience for him and us. 

Here's to you and nursery, Noah. Mamma will miss you sorely during the day, and she is very, very, very proud of you!


Beks said...

oh its tough! still as you say, hopefully it will be almost a home away from home.
proud of you too!

Shamly said...

awwwww...HUGS to Noah. :) So F, you going back to work?

fortyfiveminutes said...

Thank you Beks. Please tell me it will get better!

I will pass your hugs on Shamly. Yes, I go back to work in the first week of January. Hey, we are in Kerala from the 27th of December to the 5th of January - will you chaps be around? We'd love to see you, especially Noah!

~j~ said...

Awww! Proud of you and Noah... I'm sure you both will do really well. Give that little gentleman a big hug from me. :)

Shamly said...

Just saw your message.We will be here and would love to meet Noah...errr..and you guys too ;)A should have our number.

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